Legnano (part 2)

Tiba2 gue denger ada ribut2 tambahan. Abah dateng sama concierge. Did I hear he mentioned about a board? Board? What board?Terus gue inget lagi. Sebenernya gue ketimpa apa sih?

Si concierge ngomong beberapa patah kalimat sama Abah, kalo gue ga salah sesuatu tentang dia mau manggil paramedis. Lalu dia ilang lagi n Abah mulai nyari2 Ida untuk nyari lembar asuransi gue. Ida nanya gue itu ada dmn, dan gue berusaha nginget2. Di koper? Retsleting pinggirnya? Atau di dompet dokumen?

Di tengah2 kehectican itu Ivan tau2 udah ada. Kayaknya Didut somehow berhasil bangunin dia, which apparently cuma dia yg bangun :P Gue ga inget dia selanjutnya ngapain.

Sementara itu darah gue kayaknya udah agak berkurang, yang tersisa tinggal rasa perih yang hular bisaza n pusing2. Hebat juga ya gue kagak pingsan:) waktu ketimpanya gue malah kaget doang. Hahaha…Long after that, menurut cerita anak2, di tengah2 kesakitan kayak gitu gue masih bisa nyolot n maki2. “Sialan, sakit banget..” Hahaha.. Siapa juga yg ga maki2 kalo sakit kayak gitu? Atau cuma gue doang ya? :D

Selang beberapa lama kemudian, muncul ribut2 baru.

Paramedics nyampe, gue sempet buka mata waktu mereka dateng. Ada tiga orang, I saw them walk through the door, yang mana pintunya berseberangan dengan tempat gue duduk. Dua cowok n satu cewek. Mereka pake baju paramedics seperti yg sering kita lihat di film, ER, atau film2 lainnya. Warna oranye, ada garis kuning di lengan n kaki.

Sekelebat gue liat papan putih besar, panjang, bersandar di dinding antara pintu sama ranjang, deket kamar mandi. Papan apaan tuh ya? Kemudian perhatian gue teralihkan dengan satu cowok paramedic yg ngedatengin gue. Gue masih inget gue bilang, “Sialan,orang ini ganteng ya...” Hahahaha.. Kesempatan ga boleh dilewatkan dong :) Meski gue tau n yakin penampilan gue saat itu bener2 ga menjual dan engga banget malah. Hehehehe..

Dia mulai tanya2 apa yg gue rasain, perih, pusing, kunang2 ga. Apa gue punya penyakit tertentu that might affect? I answered I have a light hypertension. Lalu dia masangin tensimeter, and measuring my blood pressure. Normal, he said. Kemudian dia (atau paramedic yg lain ya? Kalo dia mulu yg kerja, trus yg dua ngapain? Lupa gue) lights a light and pointing it to my head. Dia periksa lukanya, dan mulai nekan2 pelan2 daerah yg luka. WOW, sakit bo. Tiap sentuhan pasti gue teriak. Yah dia yg minta gue teriak kalo berasa sakit :P Kesempatan lagi. Hahaha..Tapi sumpah sakit. Gue sampe pegangan sama Dody.

Sambil melakukan itu dia tanya2 sama anak2, gimana kejadiannya, and what we do to treat my head. Dia masih buka2 luka gue, nice n carefully. I think he said that we did great dengan mendudukkan gue n ngompres lukanya.

He asked me whether I can stand and walk. Because they gonna take me to the hospital. Waduh?? Rumah sakit? Gawat tuh kayaknya. Mungkin muka gue berubah, karena dia lalu nambahin, “Just for an overall check, and get a better treatment.”

One of them ngeluarin sebungkus es beku, lalu ditinju. He gave it to my hand, dan minta gue megang es itu di atas lukanya.It might be hurt, but it can stop the bleeding. Kepala gue makin nyut2an karena perih karena kantong esnya basah kena luka, n pusing karena dingin! Serba salah dah.

“Can you stand and walk?” then I was helped to stand, pelaaaaaannn bener, dan jalan dikit. Guess what then? Gue didudukin di tandu n disuruh baring. Oalaaaahh…Dan gue diangkat, dikasi selimut, dan ditandu keluar kamar. Not enough room makes it difficult untuk make yg beroda.

Mau tau rasanya kayak apa?
Kayak pahlawan perang kena luka ranjau n ditandu keluar scene! Really! Hahaha..

Ngelewatin pintu kamar, Abah or Ida masih nyegat gue sebentar untuk nyari asuransi n passport. Setelah ketemu, it’s been decided that Abah will accompany me to the hospital and in the ambulance. The rest will go after, because the paramedics didn’t allow more than one person to accompany me. Dan gue ga mau disuruh sendirian. Sinting aja kali di perjalanan gue sendirian. Udah mah merana, masa masih harus menderita?

Dan gue ditandu masuk ke lift, turun ke lobby, dan di situ baru pake roda. Anak2 nemenin gue sampe bawah.

Pas masuk ke ambulance juga sama seperi di film. Pintunya dibuka, dan ranjangnya didorong masuk. Roda2nya otomatis nekuk, dan masuk ke dalem ambulance perfectly, because tinggi ranjangnya sama dengan landasan ambulancenya.

Ida bilang mereka akan nyusul, ganti baju n beres2 dikit dulu. Belakangan gue denger katanya mereka emang cuman sempet ganti baju, ga sempet beres2 apa2, ambil tas, dan langsung cabut.

Legnano (part 1)

Setahun kecelakaan di Legnano!
Gile juga gue berhasil melewati setaun ini..Thanks God gue masih sehat sampe detik ini. Kalo gue cari2, bekasnya udah sulit banget didapet, cuma karena gue tau itu ada di mana, jadi langsung ketemu :) ga bakalan rata lagi bekasnya.

Jadi ceritanya, setaun yang lalu.
Malem tanggal 11 Juni kita baru kelar konser, tnyata kata Francesco ada party di taman..Giardino. Bukan Giordano lho ya ;) jadi kita ke sana, berharap partynya rame. Gue masi inget banget, hari itu kita konsernya ga pake seragam, tapi pake item2. Tnyata pestanya ga rame, gue malah ga masuk samasekali ke dalem. Jadinya gue, Ida, Dody, Wimam, Didut, trus ada Abah n Gaby juga kalo ga salah, duduk di luar, di atas tunggul kayu deket gerbang (duh, memoryyy..) trus kita malah nyanyi2 sendiri. Mulai dari Le Ragazze, Nothing's Gonna Change My Love, pokoknya cari hiburan sendiri.

Jam 11an kita pulang karena bosen. Setelah ganti baju, bersih2 make up, kita semua penghuni lantai dua kumpul di kamar Wimam n Dody. Waktu itu kamar kita masih seberangan, kalo gue ga salah inget kamar mereka 210, gue 212. Cuma minus Cisko, tapi plus Abah. Di kamar itu kita ngobrol2, trus bikin kopi instan, mie gelas.. Sekitar jam 12an kali ya..

Gue duduk di bawah bingkai jendela, Wimam n Dody di ranjang, Abah di seberang gue, Ida juga. Ivan ngantuk trus tidur duluan. Didut di ranjang satunya lagi. Dengan kopi anget wangi di tangan, gue ketawa2 n ngobrol2.

Tiba2 sesuatu yg berat jatuh nimpa kepala gue. Sumpah nyerinya, nyut2an berat. Kayaknya gue ketimpa kenop puteran jendela yang besi itu. Tapi gue kaget juga karena Abah langsung nyuruh gue baring n ngambil cangkir gue dari tangan. Bingung, gue nurut aja. Sementara gue gosok bagian kepala gue yg sakit supaya ga memar. Kok agak basah ya? Hm, kayaknya kopinya tadi sempet tumpah kena kepala. Anget soalnya.

Dalam itungan detik, Dody nanya, "Itu apa ya di karpet?" -berdasarkan cerita berikutnya, katanya sambil ngomong itu dia sambil nyuap mie..hahaha- dan all of sudden, semua yg tadinya tenang langsung kalang-kabut. Dan gue langsung tau bahwa kepala gue berdarah. Tapi gue minta anak2 supaya ga bilang separah apa lukanya.

Selama itu gue pejamin mata. Kalo gue buka mata, pusing bo!
Ida langsung nyuruh Didut ambil handuk basah, while the rest gue ga inget ngapain. Abah sibuk ngurusin asuransi n concierge, n manggil dokter juga. Dody kalo ga salah keliaran di sekitar gue juga. Didut langsung bangunin Ivan, dan kalo ga ganti2 handuk bekas luka gue, dia mondar-mandir di selasar sama Wimam! Hahaha...Panik n bingung jaya.

Luka itu mulai perih. Ida bersihin darah di sela2 jari gue, gue megang handuknya sendiri. Didut takut n panik, tapi masih juga dia bantuin cuci handuk yang penuh darah :)

Gue inget Ida n Dody berusaha cari lukanya, tapi karena kukunya panjang, Ida ga berani megang. Sementara itu Abah masih berusaha ngurusin pihak yg berwenang. Dia nyari2 asuransi gue.

Haircut.. And hours remaining to a year of Legnano's incident

Seminggu gue gunting rambut!
Harus nunggu 2 bulan lagi untuk bisa kayak kmaren lagi :)

Ada senengnya gunting rambut:
-Ga telat ke kantor karena harus hair dryer dulu
-Kembali ke muka lama.. the shorter the fresher :)

Ga enaknya:
-Agak ribet harus pake gel tiap hari.. masalahnya males harus cuci tangan abis gosok2 kepala ;P
-Susah manjangin lagi rambutnya! Seneng juga sih tampil agak beda dengan rambut bob pendek..feel a bit cuter than before :)

Beberapa jam lagi tepat setaun kecelakaan di Legnano..
Papan penutup kerekan gorden yg jatuh tepat di puncak kepala masih membekas di ingatan!
Hahahaha...
I felt horrible..I feel funny :)

Before, during, and after the long weekend

Before weekend? Thursday. Pulang rumah cepet karena ngejar mau ke Bandung, dan takut keburu macet. Long weekend for three days! Banyak rencana untuk ngisi weekend, salah satunya hang out sama temen2 lama di Bandung. Plus, Wimam katanya mau ke Bandung, so maybe it was a perfect timing to hang out again together, after such a long time.

Sebelum pulang, temen kantor ada yang ngasi permen2 loli banyak. Good, sesuatu untuk dimakan selama nyetir. Takut ngantuk. Soalnya waktu terakhir kali bawa mobil ke Bandung seudah pulang kantor, wuah ngantuknyaaaa...

Speaking of lollipop, terkenang masa kecil. Dulu gue suka banget sama permen loli (bahkan masih sampe sekarang), dan gue inget kalo dulu alm bokap mau pergi2, entah ke luar negeri atau domestik doang, pasti dia minta loli gue. Hehe..Bukannya dia bawain sebagai oleh2. Katanya sih supaya kalo tidur di pesawat atau kereta, ga ngorok :)

Eniwei, during the weekend itself, ga terlalu bagus. Pertama, waktu nyampe Bdg gue ajakin Sisca n Tania makan. Yg lain pada ga bisa. Why? Ternyata yg satu di Jakarta, yg satu pulang ke Bogor, yg satu entah kemana.. Jadi agak bete. Padahal pengen kumpul2. Mau kumpul sama temen2 yg lebih lama lagi, Ida Dody, plus ada Wimam, batal karena mereka semua org2 sibuk :P

Jadi Jumat berlalu gitu aja, Sabtu agak rame karena ketemu sodara2 di kawinan sodara. Malemnya ngabisin hari dgn baca buku n ntn dvd. Tania occupied, n Wimam ternyata pulang. Dia ke Bandung cuma daftar wisuda.... N had a date! Hahaha..

Sunday was a family day. Whole day with sis n mom. Beli hadiah untuk temen sekaligus sepupu gue yg besoknya hari trakhir. Malemnya pulang jam 8.

Besoknya, pagi2 adalah hari yg enak. Menjelang siang, mulai agak males. Berhubung gue mimpin meeting waktu itu, jadi kudu semangat :) Siangnya kita farewellan di Suharti. Pas udah mulai speeches, baru kerasa sedih. One people go. Berkurang deh satu orang yg rame2. Entah kenapa hari itu semuanya agak emosional. I can't describe it in words.. Just felt sad.

So, that's life. One come, one go. People do come and go. Physically and also in status.
Now I'm talking about different person :)

My-long-time-prays finally answered. One day, long ago, I asked God what to do, and how things could work out. And He decided it for me just now :) ga ada rasa kehilangan, sedih, sebaliknya gue malah senang. Really, my feeling's not hurt at all. Not sad at all. It has been decided. Dengan gini I finally can move on. Decide what to do with my life, what to take forthe next step.

However, I thank the person for being a part in my life, suatu waktu di masa lalu. Thank's for teach me things, and also (still) being one of my guide, my leader, my idol.

The best is yet to come :)

Resignation

Hari ini, just like usual weekend in Jakarta, just a little bit ga semangat. Cuma satu hal, someone acts so different today. From her ordinary bad attitude -yeah, not bad, I mean a little annoying..no, actually so annoying- today she acts so fun. Why can't she be like that everyday?

Last night I came home late after attended a farewell party. Two of us resigned. An editor and an associate. It was good, the atmosphere was fun and friendly. Acaranya bagus, terbilang sukses, walaupun cuma diadain di halaman kantor. We had a barbecue night and the food was good either.

Two have gone. And soon, two more.
My friend, my cousin, the one who gave recommendation on me so I got this job, soon will be resigned. He got this new job in a bank, known as a credit card supplier, but not that big "C" one. Only one interview, and he accepted.

And my friend, an associate friend downstairs, who use to hang out with us, the analysts. He choose to resign, maybe because he didn't feel comfort in this work. Dia sih bilangnya, "Kasian M*******, buang2 uang dengan ngegaji gue."

We lost the best people. Good quality people. I lost friends. People who encourage me to go through this job.

Maybe I will follow them, I hope, soon enough..

Take postgraduate class?

Waaaaaaaa!
Pingin keluarrrrrr!

The work is make me sick, the system make me sick! Situasi makin lama makin ga kondusif. Dan menyebalkan.
Baru nyadar? Ngga..Sama sekali ngga. Kalo mau nurutin kata hati, emosi, and as usual being impulsive, dari hari ketiga ngantor sebenernya udah pingin hengkang. But I tried to survive. Yah, as I said there is always blessing in disguise, bertahan di sini pun ngasi gue banyak pembelajaran. Banyak pengetahuan, yang paling jelas. Gue semakin tau what's up with this world through reading.

Recently I think about continue my study. I'm talking about postgraduate. Entah kenapa, maybe I should thank to my work also, which forced me to read and read anything, whether I like or not. Dari apa yang gue baca2 selama ini, somehow I become interested in taking postgrad class. I want to study business. Tiba2 gue jadi haus ilmu. Kedengeran klise ya? Ini baru kerasa setelah gue sering baca koran dan bacaan2 lainnya. Tiba2 gue ngerasa sebenernya gue harus banyak belajar, gue masih belum banyak tau tentang apa2. Secara dulu S1 gue ulur2 karena bosen :)

I have seriously thought about this since my first week working. Now I'm getting more seriously think about it. Apalagi in the next two months my contract will be over. Gue masih belum tau apakah gue akan memperpanjang kontrak atau ngga. Kalo perpanjang, berarti gue sembari kuliah. Busy? I hope not..I'll get the executive class, of course :) Which only require me twice a week to go to school. But then the executive class require at least 3 years experience. Apa yg bisa gue jual dengan kerja 6 bulan? Now I'm bragging..I'm already six months work.. :)

Sementara kalo regular class, it requires me everyday to go to school. Trus kerjaan gue gimana ya?

Haduhh..Dilematis..
Or should I wait for a year or two?

Feeling's economic view

Maybe it's about time to decide what to do.

Waktunya makin dekat. Have to prepare myself.

I've been waiting too long.

Hope it wouldn't destroy anything. Because the main reason why I was waiting for so long is that I don't want to take the risk. Which bring me to enter another risk. Put me in other difficult situations.

Hope it wouldn't destroy myself also..

In economic point of view, maybe this is a condition where benefit=cost. Both options have the same benefit cost ratio. If I do (a), the benefit would be equal as the cost. And the same thing would also happen if I do (b).

It's not about choosing (a) or (b). This is about things that might appear if I do (a) and/or (b). Where it would lead my life to. A better off, or a worse off condition.

This is related to my opportunity cost.

But I can't determined or even forecast what kind of result it will create, and how the net present value is.

Just a thought.

What a thought.